I love reading blogs written anonymously by people my age. I mostly read girls' blogs, because they are usually more expressive and well written. These blogs are written anonymously because they usually talk about things that society (i.e. their friends/family) would not consider appropriate discourse. I am generally a pretty normal, unemotional person without any sort of over-bearing Freudian thoughts that I feel like I need to talk about anonymously in a blog, but I feel like I should offer up this perspective, being that I assume it is pretty unique:I am an 18 and a half year old guy who is a sophomore in college, and I have never had sex, nor do I envision doing so anytime in the near future.
However, I am not unattractive/obese, extremely religious, or lacking in social skills. It is probably a result of one of the following:
- I don't drink or do drugs, nor I am frequently around anyone (especially girls) when they are.
- I immediately notice the flaws of people (girls) when I get to know them.
- I rarely make poor decisions.
My roommate, is, in all likelihood, a virgin. He is 19 and a half, and a large football player with glasses and braces. I would assume that generally his physical appearance is keeping him from doing the deed, as I can barely stand to look at him without a shirt on. I can imagine that he, along with me, is part of the extremely small minority of college sophomores who have not had sex. But, with me, I guess it just comes down to the fact that I do not have a girlfriend, and I don't really envision myself having sex with someone I don't know. I have had one girlfriend since I have been in college, and we went out for two months. After the first month, it became apparent that I had deluded myself into thinking she was someone she was not in order to "trick myself into liking her." So, I decided it would be best not to have sex with her and have her get more attached to me. This is pretty much the only opportunity I have had, and I've been shopping around for would-be devirginizers for the last year. As the year-mark approaches, I have begun to meditate more than I've wished on why I am forced in this condition, and the possible repercussions from it:
Good:
- No STDs, jealousy, drama, dependency, condoms, sexiling my roommate.
Bad:
- No companionship, relief of sexual tension, use of my abilities at their prime functionality/opportunity, among others.
Now, if you're wondering, I actually masturbate very little. Back in high school, it was more like once a day, but now, I'd say 3 times a week at most. (This is partly just the laziness of waiting until my roommate is out of the room, then forgetting to.) So, I'm not really sure how I function. I don't think about sex all the time; in fact, probably much less than most.
So I go back to my hobby of reading blogs, usually which involve girls candidly and anonymously talking about their sexual desires. Perhaps I am trying to vicariously live a sex life through words, but it's more just a study of human nature and an attempt to understand the subconscious of who I know. This is more to see if I have a similarly strong subconscious as a result of my sexual inactivity, and to see how my unique situation in college affects me or my experience greatly, if it does. That, and I am probably looking for some sort of imaginary audience to appreciate my virginity and motivate me to end it. I'll take whatever help I can get, at this point...
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Another Girl with Secrets said...
October 8, 2007 at 12:00 AM
Dude, you really really really need to get laid. Seriously, once you do the deed, you will be "hooked". I don't really understand why you don't want your 1st time to be a random encounter, if you could get it. I mean, for a guy anyway, it is more acceptable to do it that way. Do you not want that, do you want your 1st time to be "special"? If so that is cool, not knocking that at all. I myself did not have sex until I was a freshman in college. It was not by choice let me tell ya! haha! No, I was the chubby "nice" guy in high school and the one who was "friends" with all the girls which really really sucked. So I got sick of it and lost like 30 lbs and that was that. I look forward to reading your blog!! Good Luck!!!
Joe
Anonymous said...
November 9, 2007 at 12:40 PM
I'd think about having a random sexual encounter for your first time, since it tends to be a pretty unfortunate experience. Unexperienced guys tend to have issues with rhythm, duration and attention to detail, and while YOU'LL have fun, she might have some issues climaxing in those conditions.
Where that might damage a relationship, a random hook-up probably won't really care as long as you make sure that she's taken care of afterwards.
Saffron Susan said...
November 14, 2007 at 8:02 AM
C'mon, where's your next post? I've been waiting for it for ages now :)
sixteensecrets said...
November 21, 2007 at 4:13 PM