It's January. 18th. In just over 3 weeks, I'll be 19. I'm still a virgin.
I am currently in the exclusive club of people who have gone 16 months without physical interaction with the opposite sex. While I do not think about this fact often, it certainly has a prevalence in defining who I am. Part of me somehow wishes my sexual inactivity was on purpose, and thus justifiable.
As far as "random hookups" go, as suggested in the comments of my last post, I have no large issue with my first time being extremely special, but my lack of desire to do so is more a result of the following equation:
energy of hormones <>
Since I last posted, one of my best friends, who is fairly similar to me in terms of personality and sexual activity happened to meet a girl whom he is now dating, and, I would assume, sleeping with. It baffles me, mostly because the entire encounter of them meeting was totally by chance. Essentially, I am playing Vegas right now and I have lost my shirt.
In an exchange I had tonight with one of my friends, he commented on the attractiveness of a girl we both know, then asked if I knew she was single, to which I responded that I thought she was, asking if he was interested. He then said something quite poignant: "I'm pretty interested...but I know that nothing would ever really come of it."
That's pretty much how it has been with every girl I have had a crush on here. Call me pessimistic, realistic, or just not horny enough. Or, just call me on a telephone.
and I promise the next post won't be in April.
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Welcome back :D
I don't think still being a virgin at 19 is a big deal. You're only 19. That's young. At this rate, I'm going to be a virgin 'til I'm twenty.
sixteensecrets said...
January 18, 2008 at 10:18 PM
i agree that it's just a number, it just seems like i am a part of an ever dwindling minority in my surroundings.
they did a survey where 40% of the people that responded here said that they were, which I don't believe for a second. (I didn't do the survey)
thecollegiateoutsider said...
January 19, 2008 at 6:48 AM
I think you'd be surprised how many virgins there are out there. I know people who talk like they've had sex, and act like they have, but then you find out that they've actually been no where near doing it.
sixteensecrets said...
January 19, 2008 at 2:40 PM